Are You An Atheist?

I really should stop staying up so late. That’s when I have too much time on my hands and nothing to occupy such hands so my mind starts roaming everywhere. Today it roamed to atheism.

I’m a Christian. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. I believe in the Holy Spirit. I believe in the Bible. I believe in Faith. I believe in miracles. I believe in the supernatural. I believe in angels. I believe in Satan and demons. I believe in heaven and hell.

Because of my faith, I also believe in myself, in science, in medicine, in self will, in knowledge, in learning, in wisdom, in love, in family, in understanding, in seeking, in good and bad, in humanity, in equality.

My faith has actually made me a better person because it makes me seek to know more about the one I believe in – Jesus. And the more I know of Him, the more I pattern my life after Him. And that helps me be a more loving, more patient, more helpful person. Because I believe in Jesus, I believe Him when He says – If you have seen me, you have seen God. To me, that means He is the most accurate reflection of God, not what people say or make God out to be. So, God is my loving Father.

But I deviate.

Do you know what my faith has given me? – strength, hope, joy, peace, confidence, the ability to look forward with joyful expectation, the strength to push on when things don’t work out, the encouragement that tomorrow will be better, the assurance that there is a God watching out for me.

To me, that is a win-win whichever way I look at it. Every human being needs those things. Hurray to wherever or whoever you get them from. For me, I get them from my belief in God.

LagosHouseWife - Are you an athiest?However, I’m not so arrogant or foolish to assume I am 100% right. I question myself, I question the bible, I question my faith, I question God. I have my doubts. I ask – what if I’m wrong?

And if I’m wrong about the existence and reality of a God, I die and – POOF! I cease to exist. Nothing left of me to even kick myself for being foolish. Just – The End!

But I would have lived my life with joy, peace, love etcetera etcetera that my faith gave me. To me, that’s a really great bargain.

But for all the confident atheists I’ve met, I’m just wondering if they’ve ever asked themselves – what if I’m wrong?

And if you have, have you ever wondered what ‘The End’ will be for you in the event of your ‘wrongness’?

Is it a great bargain to you?

Also, another amazing thing I get from my faith is my sense of wonder. The belief that there is ‘more’ than we see keeps the child in me alive. That’s why I love fairytales even as an adult, why I can see the magic in things, the beauty in the world around me, the thrill of imaginations.

Is atheism devoid of such things? Seems like a really dull way to live if it is. Or your beef is just with God, not ‘magic’?

Anyway, just ignore me. As we all know – insomnia is a bitch (Sorry, I’ve not got the whole ‘be like Jesus’ thing on lockdown yet)

2 COMMENTS

  1. I used to believe too. But religion was just a blindfold. I couldnt really claim to be free when I couldnt ask questions. I dont know how you do it, but my sense of wonder was always suppressed. All those wars in the bible are they justified? If God will punish people forever and ever in hell after giving them about 70 years trial; is he as kind as advertised? If I were born in Dubai, as opposed to Nigeria, would I be a Moslem? Would I still make heaven since the Bible said that anyone who doesnt believe in Christ is condemned already? If Christianity is so good, why are the countries most immersed in it like Nigeria still backwards in every sphere including morality?

    I left. I’ve been trying to become the best I can be ever since. Not modelling my life after something someone told me someone did. If I die, I have lived my life the way I know best. If there is a hell where people go because they do not believe in Christ; then God is so wicked I wouldnt want to stay in his heaven to start with and I would walk to hell with my chin pointing north.

    If i were a christian on the other hand, I would have lived my life the way the people who wrote the Bible designed it for me. A horrible bargain when you consider that you might never get to live again.

    So, atheists do wonder if they could be wrong too. But burning people because they do not believe in you is wrong. Especially when you are there father and could dispel all doubts by just communicating to them directly, not in dreams, physically. So we figure if that is how God really is, we woudlnt want him anyways.

    • Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment.
      I guess our experiences do shape us. One of the hardest things for me to accept is actually the promises of God for His children. I often wonder what entitles me to life more than others who don’t believe in Him. I still struggle with it.
      But I actually didn’t just believe because I was told to believe, God had to prove His reality to me, physically. I’m kind of a doubting Thomasina that way, lol. So I often tell people if you want, you can ask God to prove himself to you. He will, I can promise that. But it’s sad to me as a christian that people have to resort to that because it means we have not only failed to live up to who he called us to be, we have also failed to live up to the basic standards of humanity. Which is what embracing religion instead of Truth has gotten us.
      Which is why I try to do my own little part by being his example. I hope I get there day by day.
      Thank you again, Larry. I really appreciate you expressing yourself.

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